Therefore, these individuals used me just to come to the United States by marrying other men. Second, I want to inform everyone that from 1989 through 1990, I was married to a female who was 11 years older than me, and she used me as well. She was involved in a relationship with me just to support her drug habit. I want to say that we only had sex, and she told me to my face that she didn't love me anyway. She told me this on Thanksgiving night in 1989 in the rain 🌧 that she used me just to get out of a rat 🐀 infested house in Dayton, Ohio. I felt used. I had wasted my time dealing with a female prostitute who had bad habits and intentions anyway. To be more transparent, I wasted valuable time dealing with lewd women during a 24-year period. From June 17, 1986 until July 2, 2010, I spent over $100,000 on lewd and fast women.
These women prostituted themselves for money throughout their lives. I was too stupid to deal with them individually for 24 consecutive years. I was only a John by choice. A John is someone who is a customer for a female prostitute. Therefore I did nothing but disrespect myself as well as God and Jesus Christ in the process. I just made a complete fool out of myself for 24 consecutive years. I literally disappointed God and Jesus Christ, my family members and myself personally. Third I wanted to inform everyone worldwide that I made a lot of mistakes by throwing myself to the wolves by giving myself away to the wrong women.
I only had one relationship where I felt like a member of the human race by establishing a connection with someone who really loved me. During that time, I really did not love myself because I was looking at porn on the computer too much. I admit that I crashed computers by looking at porn everywhere I went. I ended up messing up my true relationship by hoarding excess stuff just to make money from it.
My biggest problem right now is myself. I made mistakes by dealing with the wrong people just to obtain some form of gratification from women. They had what I wanted and I had what they wanted. Some of these women were drug addicts by choice. I constantly wanted sex for 24 consecutive years.
The sex replaced the drugs and alcohol that I used to indulge in from 1972 until 1990. I really was born addicted to alcohol and drugs because Mom was an alcoholic. Thank you for allowing me to answer this question to the best of my ability.
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