Do you think we are shaped by our experiences more than who we are?

Do you think we are shaped more by our experiences or by who we are?  Honestly as long as I have God and Jesus Christ in my life I know that I can overcome all things that are very difficult for me.   To answer this question I want to inform everyone that my experiences differ from who I am as a person because I am solely responsible for taking risks throughout my life.  My personal experiences consisted of accomplishments early on because I graduated from the University of Toledo twice as well as working in the community as a productive member of society.  I had jobs during the 1990s working with street gang members for three consecutive years as a youth counselor in the Toledo Ohio Lucas County Area.  I am responsible for working inside of college and university libraries for 12 years.  I really prefer working inside of a library because it is one of the most peaceful jobs that I have ever worked at in my entire life.   Also I am responsible for working inside of a public school 🏫 in the Charlotte Mecklenburg Area in North Carolina as well as in the Dayton Ohio Montgomery County Area for a short period of time.   Even though I had a whole lot of personal failures in my personal life by losing a total of $16,977 dollars in Western Union Funds by sending money to people that I didn't know.  Therefore I will admit that it was technology I am married moments.  I was having an online relationship with women that I really didn't know personally.  I am also responsible for sending an additional $1,550 to other women that I didn't know as well.  I guess I was a complete sucker for love for the wrong women in my personal life for 24 consecutive years.  I will admit that I am honestly weak for women.  I have drawn myself closer to God and Jesus Christ simply because I tried to take my own life by overdosing on prescription medication on February 13 2010. I know that God and Jesus Christ are doing for me more than I am doing for myself.  I know that I am a type of person who has a lot of common sense.  At least I am a person who has who have learned a valuable lesson throughout life because I was making a whole lot of bad choices during my 24 years of dwelling inside of the streets in the United States because I was only seeking a human relationship with someone from the opposite sex.  Since I stopped dealing with negative women in my life because a man doesn't have any business purchasing sex with women for a nominal fee.  Afterwards I cried out to God and Jesus Christ 🙏 🙌 😭 for help because I got tired of dwelling in darkness and making bad choices.  I have been clean and sober for 36 consecutive years now.  I have a lot of personal flaws in my life 🙏 and I have a profound weakness for women.  I have a question to ask all of you right now.  Who is smarter men or women?  I want to say that my life has been shaped by my personal experiences as well as who I am as a person because I understand the importance of maintaining a positive relationship with God and Jesus Christ 🙏 🙌 ❤️ because I cannot allow my personal issues to devour me. I want to inform everyone that I might a record in hospitals in three states right now.  Only God and Jesus Christ can officially judge me as a member of the human race.  I am a highly educated and intelligent man who loves God and Jesus Christ as well as His divine creation.  I really love reading writing using computers spending time with my family members and friends worldwide 🌐 💜 ❤️.   I do have to learn how to appreciate myself a whole lot more than usual.  I do need to attend my AA Meetings and spend time with my church brethren and my AA Sponsor on a daily basis.  I also need to make direct amends to the people who I have hurt in my entire family members and friends 🧡.  I am asking all of you right now to please keep me in your prayers because I have family members who have excommunicated themselves from me personally because I have hunted them that bad.  If it is God and Jesus Christ will for me I will make direct amends to everyone especially my own friends worldwide.  Thank you God and Jesus Christ for allowing me to answer this question to the best of my ability 🙏 🙌 ❤️.