What was the hardest personal goal that I have set for myself.

What was the hardest personal goal you have set for yourself?  First, I want to inform all of you that the hardest personal goal was staying clean and sober since 1990.  The hardest personal goal was stop smoking cigarettes for me because I was smoking marijuana and cigarettes just to deal with stress in my personal life from 1974 to 1990.  I actually started smoking marijuana and cigarettes because of peer pressure.  Second, I want to say that my second hardest personal goal was graduating from the University of Toledo in Toledo OH.   From Monday April 1, 1991 through June 14, 1996: I will admit that I struggled in College because I was using vulgarity during my classes & making things hard for my own self.  At that time, I struggled with writing because I really was not prepared for College.  Third, another one of the hardest personal goal was learning how to accept constructive criticism from other people.   For a total of 22 years, I had to learn how to forgive myself & other people because I have decided to join the AA Fellowship in 1990.  The AA Program taught me how to take responsibility for all of my sins, transgressions, & Iniquities.  I also learned a whole lot more about Jesus Christ.  I really got tired of the wrong people using me and abusing me as well.   I also went to AA Treat because I wanted to stop drinking alcohol and smoking marijuana right along with cigarettes.   I went to AA Meetings as well as treatment in order for me to learn a new way of life.  I had to move out of town for a total of 5 years.  I had to learn how to take accountability and become responsible for all of my actions.  Fourth, I went to AA Meetings & NA as well.   However, I had picked up a new addiction and it was sex.  I spent a whole lot of money on women.   I was only fulfilling my addiction to women.  I spent an undetermined amount of money on just women.  My AA Sponsor helped me to get my life back on track.   I want to say that I had been used by some of them.   My family members resented me for spending a lot of money on pornography and women.   Fifth, I acquired this addiction to women because I was only making up for time that I was involved in failed relationships with women.  I was actually scared of women.   The hardest personal goal was stopping spending too much money on the women who were already in their own personal relationships with men.  I stopped spending money on women because I got scammed out of over $18,550 dollars in Western Union Funds by engaging in online relationships with scammers and computer hackers because I was only reaching out for love.   Sixth & Finally, what happened to me is that I became homeless in Charlotte NC twice and then homeless in my own hometown of Dayton Ohio.   The sixth hardest personal goal was to start paying my bills & rent for my apartment that I have had for almost 14 years now.   I had to become gainfully employed for 13 years.  I have to still pay on my student loans from the University of North Carolina at Charlotte.   This is a place that I worked for 8 straight years.   Therefore, I have hurt myself & a whole lot of people in my own family members and friends.   I have disappointed my family members by bringing a disease inside of my family members places.  I actually tried to kill myself because I was ashamed of myself for getting scammed out of money.   I used to be a deceiver and a person who only wanted to be loved by a very decent woman.   I am the one who learned a lesson in my life by accepting Jesus Christ as my personal Savior.   I learned how to become honest with God Himself and Jesus Christ as well as other people in my life.  I am very happy to write three books in a 23 year period.  Thank you for reading my essay today 🙏.