Psalm 38:18 Commentary

Psalm 38:18 says:  I will confess my iniquity; I am very sorry for my sin.  This means that I am supposed to confess all that I have done wrong in Your eyes.  First, I want to inform all of you that I urinated on myself when I was six years old.  The reason why is because I was too afraid to go to the bathroom at my mother's house.  She whipped me with a belt for urinating on the bed.  Second, I had learned how to use Vulgarity at the age of five years old.  This is because my aunt cursed her mother for getting pregnant at the age of 14.  My grandparents knew that she was having sex with a grown man.  Third, I asked my aunt what was wrong because her only son died from Sid's at the age of mine months.  Fourth, I remember when I caught TB at the age of 11 years old. My grandparents took me to the hospital and I had to stay away from school for a month and a half.  My mother became very angry because her husband caught the disease from drinking alcohol after his friends.  Fifth, I do remember giving my sister's a haircut with a pair of scissors.  My family members whipped me for nine years.  I got into a fistfight over cutting my sister's hair.



I still have a state of uneasiness for all of my iniquities.  I remember stealing from my own mother.  I took thirty dollars from my mother's purse and I went downtown and I bought a gym bag.  I do remember when I tried to steal a candy bar at the store.  I still feel bad for stealing candy at the store and I had to go over my grandparents house and stay for four years.  I do remember getting into a fistfight with a girl at school.  She smacked me in my face because I had accidentally bumped into her at school.  Later that day, I shot her with my rifle.  Sixth, I remember when I shot 36 birds in one day.  The police chased me and my cousin home.  I do remember when I slapped my grandma because she punished me for fighting my sister. My sister got pregnant at the age of 14 by a grown man.  She also got pregnant two years later at the age of 16.  My sister and I do not speak to each other anymore.



Finally, these are an example of some of my sins that I had committed in my life.  I am still dealing with the repercussions of my sins.  It is all my fault for injuring my family members and other people for the things that they have done to me personally.  I forgave my mother's husband for stabbing me in my left arm with a hookknife.  I told the police that he was too old to go to jail.  I also forgiven my mother for changing my last name.  Life had dealt me a bad hand for the sins that I have committed even as an adult because I am a mentally ill man, who has a very high IQ.  At least I graduated from college twice.  I have worked with some troubled kids for three years.  I have worked 12 years inside of college libraries in Toledo, Ohio and Charlotte, NC.  I had a good life right now.  I have been clean and sober for 33 years now.  I love all of my family members very much.  All 38 nieces and nephews do not respect me as a person.  Lord Jesus, please intervene between my family vs myself.  This is not my fault.