What Does It Mean to Be Me

What does it mean to be me?

Good Morning Everyone!! How are all of you doing today? Fine, I hope.  I want to inform everyone that I am doing fine at the moment.  I am happy to be clean and sober right now.  I am a person who has a lot of common sense.  I am a person who is very intelligent, gifted, and a person who loves animals.  I want to tell everyone that I am very happy today.  I am happy that I have friends to confer with each day of the week.  I am a person who has physical and mental problems right now.  Some of my physical problems are as follows: Acid Reflux Disease, Glaucoma, Eczema, and Osteo Arthrits.  My mental problems are as follows: Schizoid Affective Disorder, Bipolar 1, and PTSD.  Next, I want to tell everyone that I graduated from the University of Toledo on Saturday June 12, 1993 and June 17, 1995.  I earned a degree in Social Services Technology and Interdisciplinary Studies.  I want to tell everyone that I am a very honest person.  I am a person who has a lot of joy inside of my heart. 

 I want to inform everyone that I am a very pleasant person to be around, and a person who loves to use the computer.  Perhaps, one day, I would like to purchase a computer of my own.  I want for everyone to know that I am a very nice person to be around.  I know that I have been doing a lot of writing as of late.  It is that this is the only way I know how to cope with having a mental illness.  There are those who have mental illness, and they are incarcerated at the moment.  However, there are a lot of people with mental illnesses who are talented and highly educated.  

Also, I want to let everyone know that I have 5 brothers and 2 sisters.  I have a total of 42 neices and nephews.  It is not very easy coming from a dysfunctional family.  My siblings and I rarely talk to each other.  I understand that my siblings have children of their own.  It is that my brothers and sisters and I have been through a lot all of last year.  My mother and sister died last year.  I want to let each of you know that it has not been very easy losing your mother and sister within 48 days of each other.  Therefore, I am still grieving over the deaths of my sister and mother.  I am trying my very best to cope with all of this, but it is not easy.  

Moreover, I want everyone to know that I am a person who is sensitive, kind, gentle, warm, understanding, and always eager to stay busy.  I am losing my vision.  I am the only one who is losing their eyesight in my family.  I have an enlarged liver and heart as well.  I am the type of person who tells the truth when it comes to myself.  I know that my family members do not really talk to me because I have a mental illness.  That is okay!! God has my back!! God is doing for me more than I am doing for myself.  My mother and elders in my family as well as all of my cousins are my biggest encouragers.  My nieces and nephews are encouragers as well.  My family members are very concerned about me.  It is that all of them have their own families.

In Addition, I want to inform everyone that my friends are very concerned about me right now.  Some of my friends have been crying because I told them that I suffer from Glaucoma and a mental illness.  I have been crying because I am going to lose my eyesight.  It is not easy having vision problems every single day.  God will take care of me!!  I will not be able to attend my AA Meetings that much because I have health problems.  I have signed up for an organization for people who are not able to attend AA Meetings for people who have physical and mental problems.  I want to inform all of you that my medications make me very sleepy.  I have to do what is right in the eyes of God.

Finally, I am eager to go to AA Meetings in the community.  However, I am not feeling very well.  I only wish that my family members can attend some of my AA Meetings with me.  It is that, most of my family members are not interested.  I am not feeling very well.  I would like for all of you to please pray for me.  I am writing my blogs in order to cope with a mental illness.  I want to inform everyone that I am writing in order to sharpen up my writing skills.  My typing speed has improved a whole lot since 2015.  This was during the time that I was enrolled in an office management class.  My typing speed has improved a whole lot. I am happy right now.  My self-esteem has elevated a whole lot since last year.  I am able to put things into perspective a lot easier than ever before.  Thank you very much for reading my blog.

Sincerely,

Anthony Hopkins