Job 15:12

Job 15:12 says: Why does your heart carry you away?  What do your eyes wink at,  This means that your stress is getting the best of you.  The reason why stress is getting the best of me is because I have allowed it to happen to me.  I know that I am only a human being.  I am a Work in Progress!  What do my eyes wink at?  I really do not know that I was winking at anyone.  Remember that only a deceptive person tend to wink a lot.  I will admit that I have allowed stress to get the best of me.  I have been under pressure as of late.  I have been dealing with Organized Criminals Worldwide during the past 14 years now.  These people are responsible for messing up my Cellphones and all of my personal email accounts.



Next, I have given these computer hackers and scammers a total of $18,000 dollars in Western Union Funds.  These people who scammed me out of money did not know me personally.  Lord God, I Thank You for keeping me alive.  I thank you for Your Breath of Life every single day of the week.  I have allowed Your Word to penetrate my spirit.  I have been feeling sluggish and depressed because of my diabetes and Low Testosterone Levels.  I have been sleeping excessively and feeling lazy.  I am a person who has a lot of common sense.  I am a person who is very intelligent.  I am a person who has spiritual discernment.  I want to inform all of you that I am hearing voices from demonic spirits.  I thought that these voices were over with forever.  I will admit that I have been doing things that normal people do not do for themselves.

Further, I want you to know that I have been gaining weight during the past few weeks now.  I have been staying home lately because of the weather.  Lord Jesus, I love you very much.  I am very happy with my progress that I am making for myself.  I have been trying to find a job working anywhere.  It doesn't matter what kind of job it is right now.  I have to pay a total of $27,000 dollars in student loans to a company called William and Fudge Collection Agency and Transworld Solutions Agency just to pay the University of North Carolina at Charlotte NC student loans.  Lord Jesus, please help me to resolve all of my financial problems.  I also have to pay medical bills as well.

Moreover, I really need to reestablish my personal relationship with God.  I will admit that I have to get myself together and be a real man.  Lord Jesus, please help me to be the person You want me to be.  Lord Jesus, I need motivation in my life right now.  I am out of shape and overweight.  I have been reading Your Word and it is enabling me to read the Bible every day of the week.  I am being transparent in saying that I need Your Help.  I have been eating the wrong foods and neglecting myself.  I'm being honest in saying that I need help with various things.

In Addition, I want to inform all of you that my neighbor's are literally too close to my apartment.  I am getting the impression that my neighbor's who live below me are engaging in some criminal activities as well as other people inside of my apartment building.  The only thing that I do each day of the week is go to the library and Church.  I will admit that I have missed a few weeks of Church and this is messing me up.  I have my AA Meetings at home rather than going out in the elements.  Lord Jesus, I really do not know what is going on inside of my apartment building but this activity is very suspicious.  

Finally, I am trying my best to eliminate the indecisive behavior that people think that I have right now.  Whenever I read the Bible, it helps me to stay focused and think deeply about the things that are puzzling me.  Lord Jesus, I am doing good today.  I want to inform all of you that my teeth are falling out of my mouth.  I am having memory lapses and back problems.  This is very serious!  My life right now is still unmanageable.  I have to start all over again when it comes to the 12 Steps of Recovery.  God Bless All of You.  Thank You For Reading My Essay.