What
does it mean to Test the Lord God?
Good Day Everyone!! I would like to
start this essay off by asking everyone a very important question. What does it mean to test the Lord God? First, I would like to say that it is the
smallest things that we do wrong that goes against God. For example, if a person continues to confess
for his or her sins over to God, and constantly repeats them. You are putting God to the test. For me personally, I am guilty of looking at
porn in the past, and dealing with harlots.
I had spent over $100,000 dollars on sex.
Next, I want to inform everyone that
it is our actions, deeds, and trials that we go through that put God to the
test. Like they say in Isaiah 59:2 that
your sins have separated you from God.
As I recall, I was only testing the waters so to speak. I know that being involved in carnal
activities is a sin. I remember dealing
with female prostitutes during a 24 year period. From June 22, 1986 to July 3, 2010; I was
solely responsible for spending my money buying pornographic magazines and
buying sex from prostitutes; while living in Toledo, and Dayton, Ohio. The reason why I preferred these women is
simply because they were looking for money to get a fix. I was involved in relationships with women,
but at that time, I was not satisfied.
I will also admit that I was involved in
a monogamous relationship with my wife in 1989.
She ended up giving me a STD twice.
I had to report her to the Dayton, Ohio Montgomery County Health
Department on October 21, 1989. She had
given me chlamydia and later I had gonorrhea inside of my mouth. I was devastated because my wife at that time
was a prostitute. I did not know it
until the very last minute. She ended up
suffering from pelvis inflammatory disease.
You see one thing, whenever, a woman contract a disease of some sort,
their bodies contain an acidic environment that is capable of getting rid of
things that are inside of the vagina.
However, she accused me of giving her a disease and I was faithful
throughout our marriage. I had caught
her cheating on me with another man.
Afterwards, I divorce my wife because
she told me in my face that she did not love me. I cried and cried for a long time. I moved to Toledo, Ohio on September 1,
1990. I lived in the Toledo, Ohio Area
for a total of almost 6 years. While
living in the Toledo, Ohio Area, I had continue to deal with the wrong
women. I was not able to find anyone who
would love me for the person that I am.
My life at that moment changed for the better. I graduated from the University of Toledo in
Toledo, Ohio on June 12, 1993 and again on June 17, 1995. I ended up working a total of 3 jobs and
living on my own.
In Addition, I want to inform all of you
that I continued to pay for sex with money.
I also worked my fingers to the bone and God had changed me for the
better as of February 15, 2015. I know
that what I am saying is that I became a slave for Satan for a very long
time. I will also admit that I really
need a lot of prayer because I am not involved in another relationship with
anyone at the moment because I am still trying to get myself together with God.
Finally, I want to say that I had been
dwelling and sleeping inside of the streets for a very long time. Whenever my mother used to put me out of the
house, I used to sleep at Riverview Park in Dayton, Ohio. This was during the time that I was in active
addiction. I used to drink beer and wine
for 18 years. I used to smoke marijuana
and deal with lewd women for over 24 years.
I want all of you to please keep me in your prayers because I am still startling
the fence. I am trapped between social
media and porn. My phone has been inundated
with porn images. I need everyone to
please keep me in your prayers because the Internet is Satan’s Playhouse. I am literally ready to change for the
better. I have stopped looking at porn
and dealing with my sinful nature. Thank
you for reading my essay. God Bless All
of You!!
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